The Chronicles of Chedeng

I left my job at Wels. I pushed through with my resignation. I can't commit because of my too complicated life. Things being in my control but still, for some mundane reason, reamins uncontrollable. LD is going to Dubai in a few months and I'm ready to be a housewife and start a new business. I'm scared but excited. I'm silently praying that he breezes through all exams. If he makes it, I'm sure our life will have a brighter twist.

Then I received an invitation from a call center company for a team leader position. Again! This isn't the first time it happened. It seems I'm being pulled again to the field I know like the back of my hand.

Will I grab it this time?

I'm not sure. If I knew I could work I wouldn't have left the academy and continue being a teacher.

I miss my students sooo much.

Changes are roaring from afar. It's coming but I'm holding on to God's strong firm grip.

He knows me. I trust Him completely.

***Recently, all I ever did was go online, chat and play Mario Kart on DS. I've been so addicted to it! Oh gosh!

After this blog expect my hands on the DS yet again.

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This is a very painful blog.

I had a few things to do in school so I ended up surfing the net for just the heck of it. I've been surfing through pet sites, email sites, manga sites until... I stumbled into a Filipina escort service site.

What I saw made me very sad.

Really.

I'm at a loss of words. Seeing all those young Pinay women, half naked with descriptions such as "Fantastic boobsy 36-25-36 University student. This chinita will make you feel hot. Good performer", made feel a deluge of emotions. It's like my inner Pinay started to sob silently for them.

I have no prejudice against these young women. But I feel so sad. If only I can help them!

My boyfriend told me that prostitution is one of the oldest plagues on earth. A plague that we can never rid off. A sore that never heals even through all this time.

I'm a Pinay whose proud of my race, my heritage, my tradition and my identity. A Filipina not only in features but in soul.

But... now... I don't know.

Now, I dare you to try this, type FILIPINA in any search engine and you'd see that the first sites that match will be adult sites.

Like meat in the wet market, Filipinas are sold.

Ang Maria Clara ni Rizal parang tinapa na binebenta.

You ask yourself "Babae, gusto mo bang maging Filipina?"

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The entrance of August has given me ALOT of lessons. One of them was this:


I remember LD saying yesterday while playing Nintendo DS with Ate Mae "There's no place for second place." We all burst into laughter but come to think of it, nobody wants to be taken for granted.

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"The waterfall is alot like life. It goes up and goes down. It's your choice how you see it. If you stay positive it can be alot like this waterfall. Breathtakingly beautiful."






I woke up at 11:30Am, earlier than usual, with a heavy heart. I unfastened Steve's leash and let him play in the bed. I sat up thinking that this is it. This is the time I will finlly talk to my superior about my thoughts.





I went out of the room and turned on the computer. I stared blankly at the screen. Then I pulled up Word Office and started typing my resignation letter.





It was a rainy day (due to Marce) and I feel the heaven's tears. I hailed a taxi and I went to Wels at 1:35Pm.





I quickly talked to my boss' secretary and I waited for my boss to call my name.


After my boss talked to Lynn (my student) she called my attention and asked me to stay in the room.





I gave her my resignation letter.





But she declined it. She told me the pros and cons of resigning and told me about my students waiting for me everyday. She told me my performance was good and that my students gave me high scores on the evaluation.





So, I retracted my resignation and stayed.





I went to Podium with Lynn and had a great time with her at The Singing Room. We danced and sang. We had alot of fun.





We came back to the academy at 6pm. I almost cried when she hugged me for the last time. She's leaving tomorrow afternoon.





Today, I felt a torrent of emotions.





Things came out right... but different from what I was prepared to accept.





God gave me yet another different twist.

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